Go to the Teacher not in greed, but in love

The following is an excerpt from a samvaad (dialogue) session with Acharya Prashant.

Question: I have been reading, listening to you, Osho, Krishnamurti, Nisargadatta, for the last one year. I have a peculiar situation. Having attained a lot of peace, now I am finding difficult to read or listen. Somehow I feel, I am going away from peace, by doing that. Everything that can be read or listened to, seems to be already known and I don’t find anything new. I do not know whether it is my mind playing some game, or is it okay to be in that situation. Or am I just being arrogant? Now I just want to be myself and probably looking for blogging and take the role of the teacher which will clear my knowing more. I want to be tested.

Thanks again. Please comment if it’s worth it.

Acharya Prashant(AP): You see, the ways of mind can be very tricky.

The mind by definition is that, which keeps feeling incomplete and does whatever it does with a purpose. The purpose is to gain something. The purpose is to reach somewhere. The purpose is to advance. Become better. Progress.

You are now saying that anytime you listen to me, Osho, JK, Nisargadatta, it seems that you already know what you are listening to and you do not get anything new. Don’t you see, what these words reveal? These words reveal that the mind is still quite ambitious and looking for something. The mind is saying, “I will go to Krishnamurti only if he gives me something new, otherwise, I will not go to him.” Is this a relationship of love?

If I will go to you I will demand that I get something from you. If I am not getting something from you, then I will say, “I am stopping listening to you. I will not read you any further. As long as you were able to provide me and stuff me with knowledge, I loved you, I respected you, I came close to you. Now I find that I have read a lot and everything appears to be repetitive, so I will no more listen to you.”

The relationship between teacher and student is not that of the giver and the taker. The relationship is of the lover and the lover.

Yes, the student comes to learn a lot, but learning cannot be the purpose, it cannot be the objective and the driver. If the student goes to the…