Whatever be your chosen field of work, whatever be your location in life, whatever be your status in society, whatever be the direction of your endeavor, there can be no real progress if you just keep working in that field.
A student has 65% marks and is not satisfied; a scientist is getting particular results in his laboratories and is not satisfied; a politician is getting some amount of support in the electorate and is not satisfied; an athlete is performing to a particular standard and is not satisfied and all of them want to put in more effort, all of them think that they can change through their effort and hence improvement and success can come. And remember, that in all these fields, area of work, the life activities are very different. Or it could be a relationship — two people are in relationship and they are not satisfied with the quality of the relationship so they too want to bring in some change so that there can be some progress. Nothing can happen whatever be the field, till first of all, the mental pattern is thoroughly changed.
The fellow who is getting 65% marks is not getting 65% marks for no reason. There is something within him that binds him to 65%. This 65% cannot radically change till the fellow radically changes.
Being what you are you cannot get anything very different from the figure you are already getting. Yes, 65 can become 68 or 70 or it can probably drop to 60 but if you think that you can become a 90% scorer that cannot happen. This 65% is a reflection of your being and your personality because you are preserving your being, your personality, so this 65% will also be preserved.
And that is why you would see that in overwhelming, large proportions of cases, your academic percentage in first semester will be almost the same throughout your academic career. What you get in the first semester will be maintained in the coming semesters as well with a little bit of change. Because, you are the same, your effort is not going to help.
If you put in more effort that would be like a dog trying to chase its tail or a man trying to lift himself up using the power of his hands. He is saying, “I will lift myself up from the earth using my own power.”
It is not possible because you yourself are the fellow who will cause resistance to improvement.It’s like having one foot on the accelerator and the other foot on the brake. You have two footy for no reason! The reason is duality.
You are a businessman, you are doing 10 crores, you want to rise to 12, then work on your marketing, finances and distribution, but if you want to rise from 10 to 500 then forget marketing and finance and HR, work on yourself. Because being what you are, you will not take the quantum jump from to 10 to 500. 10 to 12, you will manage and you feel very happy “20% improvement has resulted due to my hard work”. You will feel very happy and you will celebrate, “20% improvement!” but 10 to 500 cannot come due to your hard work, it can come only in a wake of utter dissolution of your personality.
A new self has to be born.
Only a new self will produce totally new results.
“Being what I am I will at least get 60.”
In that small narrow bracket and that small narrow bracket is you. That’s what you are — the four walls of your house. That’s not where you live; that’s what you are. Your brackets are your boundaries.
And please remember, those wall have not come due to some accidents they are not there out of sheer chance. Those walls are just a reflection of your mind. If you are just entertaining yourself with the thought that, “One day, I will be able to break away and fly free” then you are just deceiving yourself.
The world is like a mirror — it reflects what your mind is projecting.
If you see walls around you that only mean that your mind is full of walls. Your mind is projecting walls. And if the mind has walls, then even if it is forcibly made to fly away, it will carry the walls with itself and soon you will find that in the external world also new walls are surrounding you.
You are the walls;
unless there is complete demolition of who you are,
you will remain where you are.
Before you forget, I am repeating one central thing — that the voice that leads you to failure and the voice that urges you to improve are one and the same voice.Both are fake; both are your enemies.
Hope promises change, but is the agent of continuity.
By hoping you allow the rubbish to continue.
By hoping that one day I will be able to clear the rubbish, you are allowing the rubbish to continue. So, hope is a very deceptive thing. We all hope for change. But in hoping for change, we only allow the rubbish to continue; not change; to continue, persist.
There is a complete algorithm of problem creation and maintenance and you are trying to co-opt me within that algorithm. You know what the algorithm is?
Create a situation.
Name it a problem.
Try to find a solution.
Go to that fellow to get a solution.
Do not let the solution work.
Land into another problem,
Go back to that fellow,
Get another solution,
Do not let that solution work,
Create another problem,
Go back to that fellow.
And this pattern allows your mental activity to continue. This is all that the mind wants — having something to continue; having something that extends in time.
Those who do not want to face failure again and again must give up the quest for progress.
And when you do not want to improve,then genuine transformation occurs,not just marginal improvement.
The desire for improvement is an obstacle to real improvement.
It is because you want to improve and I am repeating, when you will want to improve, you will want only a little improvement. Because you are little and a little mind cannot want much.
Your efforts will not bring about real change in you.
Your desire will not bring about real change in you.
The real change comes when you see the futility of your desire and your efforts.
You want to take the credit — that will not happen. As far as you are concerned, you are already getting the best that you can get. You will not be getting more than this from Existence. Existence is a very fair operator. It is already giving you what you deserve. You will not get anything more than this from existence. If right now, you are getting misery, suffering, failure you will keep getting misery, suffering and failures because that’s what you deserve.
A better future is not possible for you.
The future, if at all it comes, will be just the same as your present.
You are not rising up a hill.
There is no peak that you are climbing towards.
You are already at the peak.
When you know you are on plateau, you know you cannot fall down. You may as well relax. The fellow on the plateau running around thinking that he can ascend the mountain; there is no mountain — so, sleep! You cannot ascend but you cannot also descend, so sleep! Your 65 will remain 65 even if you sleep. You know that, right?
The moment you realize that your effort is useless, the very agency from where your system operates changes. Now you have lost your trust in your self made system. When you loose trust in your self made system then another system takes over. It’s a miraculous mad system. And when it takes over, strange things happen. But for that system to take control of you, you must completely loose trust and hope in the system that you have made for yourself. You must totally disown, disregard it and disrespect it. You must be able to clearly see how inadequate it is, how much of suffering it has given you and how it is deviously leading you towards more and more suffering.
Let that something else take possession of you. You do not know yourself. You simply do not know your real face.
See what you are capable of, see what heights you can scale but first of all vacate the house, and first of all get rid of your self belief.
Get rid of your confidence in self.
If self respect means respecting your hollowness and ego, I am teaching you to disrespect yourself totally.
Disrespect yourself; go to the extent of humiliating yourself that even small remnant of old system does not remain with you.
It terrifies, right?
You don’t want to feel small in your own eyes, you want to feel good about yourself but this urge to feel good about yourself is the urge to feel good about the system and it comes from the system itself. You will have to see the inadequacy of your entire life; you will have to admit that you have been an unexceptional failure. You cannot even say that some part is good and the rest is bad.
You will have to see that whatever you call as success,
whatever you call as the shining jewels of your life, are either just deception
or stuff that Grace has given you in spite of you not deserving it.
Change is such a gentle, peaceful and small word. I have not said that mind needs to change; I am saying that the mind needs to be dynamited away.
There is difference between the changing facade of a building, changing the porch or the portico and bringing the building down. I am not asking you to change the building; I am asking you to blow up the damn thing.
How can the mind blow itself?
For that you have to ask yourself, “How the whole thing came up in the first place? Who raised the building?”
Once you realize how the building is raised, then there is a chance of it not being raised again. Form where did the building come? Have you had it since eternity? Were you even born with it? From where does this entire system come?
Excerpts from a ‘Shabd-Yoga’ session. Edited for clarity.
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Originally published at prashantadvait.com on January 11, 2017.