Following is an excerpt from a samvaad (dialogue) session with Acharya Prashant.
Acharya Prashant: Pradeep Ji is asking, “Dear Acharya Ji, I don’t know what kind of wound I am carrying inside me, that I am having a constant feeling of ‘leave me alone’, towards the world. From morning till evening, I am running like crazy, driving to office in mad traffic, followed by corporate pressure to do things unwillingly. Bearing stupidities of people around.
I get out of the office as if I came out of a madhouse, tired and frustrated, and it’s already night. I eat and sleep. And the roller-coaster starts again. But since I need to run this crazy race, I feel that my blood is sucked by parasites, and there is a wound, a cry from inside, that I am carrying.
I cannot get rid of this wound. I want to jump off this train, but I can’t, because of these responsibilities. I feel I am a dead machine, thrown on an assembly line, or the other things inside me, drilling holes, hammering, and finally thrown out.
I can’t leave the family, as they are dependent on me. And I am too in, some or the other way, dependent.
Acharya Ji, in such a situation, what should I do?
Pradeep Ji, the way of instantaneous freedom, instantaneous departure, is not for the householder.
The ‘Law of Karma’, and the result of Karma, ‘The fruit of actions’, always holds good, it cannot be violated. One is held to the past, by a thousand actions, memories, and the pending fruits.
Immediate and quick liberation is then possible only through total psychic departure.
A kind of a Spiritual death. That is often unlikely. Keep working, you will have to go step by step.
To the extent I have known you and seen you, your temperament is not of the one who can take one quick and final jump. For you, is the way of the stair. One step at a time. That way is slow. But at least, you will keep moving. And there is substantial and significant progress in due course of time.
Now that you have built up responsibilities for yourself. Now that you have participated in situations that make others dependent on you, the onus is on you! To dissolve those situations, to find a…