Why is there inner chaos? How to find inner order?

Following is an excerpt from a samvaad (dialogue) session with Acharya Prashant.

Questioner (Q): Life comes with so much chaos and sometimes exposes the order. So when there is chaos, we feel challenging, and we try to overcome them, and then we try to look for orders. But even when there is so much order, we feel like something is not happening that we wanted.

Acharya Prashant (AP): See, it is very relative to you. Don’t talk of these things as objective. When you say ‘chaos and order’ — It depends on who you are. If you take yourself as the socially ordered being, the socially conditioned being, or the biologically ordered being, then even spiritual progress appears like chaos to you.

A Rumi or a Kabeer or a Krishna is a messenger of anarchy and disorder to the man who is conditioned to live in a social system and social order. We will say Rumi just brings about chaos, and Krishna is deviating from all the accepted principles. So he, too, is disorderly. Who are you? You always define chaos and order from your own vantage point.

Sometimes it is better to be chaotic than to be socially ordered. Kids appear chaotic. Later on, they became ordered. Mostly their order is not something to be really celebrated. The chaos was powered by freedom. This order was powered by bondage. You decide which one is better.

Divine order often appears like chaos.

But you should also remember that transcending the social, biological order does not mean you are entering a disorder. If you are transcending the order imposed upon you by society, then you are entering a divine order, a mystical order.

That order will not be comprehensible to everybody. So they might say you are very disorderly now. But that again does not mean that everything that appears disorderly is actually divine order. Don’t get into that. You turn your room totally chaotic, and when somebody asks you “Why is your room in such a shabby condition?”, you say “Because this is divine order!” No!

Not everything shabby is divine order.

Q: So often, I feel some people are like they have lost the zeal and time to get up and say that everything is transient anyway. What is my motto to get up?